So i experienced another break up today - well technically yesterday from a text message that didnt make any sense.
Furious as i was, i asked to meet up and talk in person, which apparently didnt help at all. It's funny and surreal to see someone that once tried so hard to woo you now tries so hard to rationalize whatever why he doesnt want to continue the relationship. It doesnt really matter, not really. If we're meant to be, we dont need to go through such a hard time. All those 'lets just be friends, and you can always check me up when you go to a concert / you want to go to a movie - it's sad to go alone...' comments seem rather pathetic.
If you've decided to leave this relationship, just go ahead. Things never work out the way we intend to, especially that with long term relationship you're expecting high intensity / maintainence at the very first stage. I'm sorry but we're not on the same page here and i see too clearly that we never will.
People say three times a charm, and it's probably technically the third time now (?) with an official good-bye. All different forms. But this guy is really talkative, all too talkative to an extent that i couldnt help but stopped him with 'hey that's enough reasoning, dont push any further..' i'm subtly hinting that you're really boring me off with your bs dude. Since technically we're not dating anymore, and i dont really lack of friends - well alright i do, but i dont really like to be-friend with whoever i've dated before.
And you asked if i have any questions of you. No thanks. I've had enough of your speeches, which i'm listening to only to show politeness and have to cry to myself afterwards for not being brave enough to leave the scene at once. I'm glad that i handled it well though, from that you asked the server to split the bill, leaving me with the most awkward moment ever. i dont really want to have ice cream btw, i was way too full from the drink and felt like throwing up actually, or probably your talk is disgusting me so much that ive had enough already.
Now i understand not only that it's never pretty to say good bye, but how worse things can go to say good bye.
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